Sundays are hard. I try to stay busy, but with winter and guests it's not always easy to get out and about...plus, sometimes there is just so much that needs to be done here... I am trying to get a head start on taxes, and the house has been something of a mess, and today I spent the day dealing with all this...it's not easy, but it's necessary. At least I'm making progress in getting organized...that's something, I guess. I wish I could quit trying to understand why life works out the way it does...why you put your faith it one thing and it turns out to be the thing that bites you in the butt.... I wish I wasn't sensitive and that I could better live in the moment. I wish I was enlightened... I work at it, I want to be, but obviously I have a long way to go. Still, I guess all I can do it try one day at a time... Perhaps someday the bigger picture will present itself to me...

The week ahead promises to be busy, which is good. Being busy is a good thing, I'm learning, but it doesn't fill the hole in one's heart, unfortunately....sorry for the 'sad' blog, it's just that sort of day... Tomorrow will be better...