Boy, what a day!!! Started out with an amazing breakfast with my guest and his daughter--a fabulous conversation about consciousness, awakening, and the evolution of the human spirit. It was hard to believe the insight coming from this man's 17-year-old daughter! The conversation began with a discussion of the subjugating of women from ancient times, then moved on to the idea of consciousness and its containment in human form, then moved to how anything material can absorb the 'energy' of humans (like this house, for instance!), and ended with how we can bring 'light' to relationships--thus having everything we want in our human existence but still being able to transcend it at the same time. Amazing! It was like having breakfast with Eckhart Tolle--and his daughter!!--if he had one! Lee says the body is like a 'surfboard' and all you have to do is ride the wave! I like that metaphor! We talked about the Bible a lot, and how many Christian's mistake its metaphors for factual accounts, and I love his metaphorical interpretation of the story of Lot's wife, who was told not to look back at the devastation she was leaving--and when she did, was turned into a pillar of SALT! What a message for ME!! Don't look back, don't look back, don't look back!! My insightful interpretation for the day had to do with Revelations and the Rapture--all those people who simply 'disappear'--to me this is what awakening consciousness is all about--learning that nothing is 'real' and that everything in our existence is created by our minds, so when we finally evolve to a full 'understanding' that everything we believe is 'real' is simply 'space', it disappears and so do 'we'... And those who don't 'evolve' to such a realization will remain in 'form' and destroy themselves and the world they believe is 'real.' It's an interesting idea, but who knows...as Lee says, sometimes you just have to accept the mystery for what it is--mystery.

We also talked about transformation on a 'personal' level, and how sometimes you have to 'cocoon' before you become the 'butterfly.' But once you start on this journey, no matter how much you want to, you can never return to living in 'illusion' again. I know this has been my struggle--I liked the illusion and I wanted to stay there, but that time has past, and now the Universe has other things in store for me. Who knows what, but they will be wonderful, if I 'trust the process.' Exactly the words that Kim Eng (Eckhart Tolle's partner) wrote to me when the Oprah webcast was happening! Coincidence, or just truth?

I spent the rest of the day getting ready for my potluck tonight--my 'coming out' party--which was a resounding success! Had a really nice turnout with the film group from Jeff City as well as several local friends and friends of friends too. It was wonderful--the house was filled with laughter, good food, and stimulating conversation! It was great to spend time getting to know the Jeff City group better; they stayed after most of the local gang left, and it was a hoot to swap 'war' stories about movies, men, and dog shows! I couldn't have asked for a nicer evening--and the best part is, I don't have to get up early to do anything tomorrow! Oh, I've missed my workouts lately, but I've been running around so much that hopefully I can catch up on them next week!

Tomorrow I close on the house re-fi, and then I've got several appointments in Columbia, so it will be a busy day. But all in all, I feel a bit more like my old self, or my new self, or whoever I'm turning out to be, and that's a good thing. I'm still not completely sure who she is, but I do hope I'm going to like her. So, a long post, a bit too 'spiritual' for the taste of some, I'm sure, but honest, at least. Till tomorrow...