I was reading my friend Rob's blog today, and he's been braving the streets of Dallas on his bike, doing his part, cut back on gas and help the environment. I was telling him I've been riding my bike a lot lately too--but it's different in a town of 12,000! It's also different when you're riding a bike with gears, and a vintage Hollywood Schwinn, which mine is! It's hell on the hills here--that's on me, not the hills themselves! I've been riding it to the Y some though, which is nice, because I can cut back on the warm-up and cool-down time! With the great weather we've had this summer though, I don't mind using it to get around, or just for a Sunday bike ride along the creek.

Anyway, had a pretty productive day today. Started out with breakfast for guests--a great couple from Kansas City. We got into an amazing discussion about politics and spirituality, and we were completely on the same page about both! The woman even invited me to come stay with them sometime, and I just might do it, because they were great to talk to! I can't believe some of the amazing people that have walked in my front door lately. And more to come, this I know. For now, I am just where I need to be. When guests are here, the truth of this is so obvious to me... Just wish I had more of them right now!

Back to the day though, after they left I hit the Y, came home and worked on their room a bit, then settled down at the computer for some editing work, trying to catch up on stuff, which I am, slowly. I was supposed to go to a Reiki group in Columbia tonight, but I decided not to as the weather's a bit 'iffy' and quite frankly, I'm feeling tired for some reason and just want to veg out. I have guests again tomorrow, and a fairly busy weekend, so I need a good night's sleep.

I am feeling a lot better this week than I have in a long while. I think I am finally getting that I don't have to let negative thoughts control my life. It's weird, turning away from them. It's not really hard, just not something I've had much practice at doing. But guess what, it works. I'm being productive, I'm happy, and life is looking brighter. Wow!

So, that pretty much sums up my day. I'll probably wrap it up with dinner and a good movie.

Seems like the hours of the day just fly by! I have such good intentions of getting so much done, and then the day is just--GONE! Today was so beautiful, I just had to take a walk, then I had to do a room, then I had to get cleaned up, then I had to go to the store, then I had a 'little' bit of time left to do my editing work...but I also still had more B&B updating to do...then I had guests check in! Seems like it's non-stop. Still, that's ok, it's good to be busy! And good to have guests--a delightful couple from Kansas City--he teaches in cardiology and they are both very sweet. Overall a nice evening... Not much else to report for today...

I had a good day today. Started the morning with 2 lovely guests from Spain. Over yogurt and toast we talked Spanish and American politics and dreamed about owning a guesthouse and antique shop in the French countryside! They were charming people, bringing their daughter to attend a year of journalism school at Mizzou. This is the wonderful part of owning the B&B, the amazing people who come through the front door!

Later, I went to the Y and worked out, and then played catchup with the rest of the afternoon. I'm trying to figure out how to re-configure some things in the office, and just to put everything in order. A difficult task at the moment, which was gladly interrupted by phone calls from my sister and a good friend. Then another friend came over later and we discussed a book signing she's hosting for me in mid October. Once the evening arrived, I went to see Sisterhood 2 with another friend.

Tomorrow I have one couple coming in the evening, so I have to get the room ready, and then buckle down and do some editing work. I'm getting behind and need to catch up... The weather has been so amazing here though, all I want to do is sit on the porch. Maybe at least I can work out there tomorrow!

I did have a very interesting couple from Spain and their daughter this weekend, who's going to MIZZOU for a year to study journalism. But I didn't get much of anything else done. Part of this was because the weather was SO perfect I walked downtown on Saturday and did all the little shop that were having outdoor sales... Not that I really bought anything, but it was fun to walk around, and I haven't been 'out' in so long. So it was good for me. Then watched a movie that night with a friend, which was also good. Then came home, and got sad and lonely. So. I'm not sure what to do with this information. I love the house, and especially when it's full of guests, but so many memories when it's not. And sometimes even when it is. And truthfully, I'm still in 'shock' about my new life, and wonder how long that's going to last. Well, if you know me and you're reading, I guess you're finally getting some insight into the truth about 'me' at the moment. The biggest truth is, losing someone you love hurts, and it hurts for a long time, so matter how you wish it wouldn't. Tomorrow is a new week, and I'll keep putting one foot in front of the other, but today, walking has been painful. No doubt about it. (And if you don't know me, sorry for the downer blog...)

Ok, this is good...a 2-day roll getting back to blogging. Especially since it's Friday night, which in the past has been busy. Tonight, I have NO guests, but it's the week before school starts, so I expect that's the reason. Things are picking up, and will be MUCH better soon. How do I know this? Because I believe it, and I'm trusting the Universe to bring me what I need. It's been hard to get back to a place of ok-ness, but I am definitely moving in that direction. I watched a wonderful DVD that talks about 'upping your vibrational escrow' and I am all over that. I have lots of escrow, and it's time I started cashing in. What's my dream, what do I want--I want to be HAPPY, at PEACE, with love in my LIFE. It's all there waiting, I just have to start believing! So, I DO, as of today!

I do have guests tomorrow night, which is great, and I plan to attend an auction tomorrow, which should be fun, and these days, I'm looking for fun! Tonight, I'm off to watch the first 'Sisterhood' with a friend, and hopefully we'll get to see #2 soon. Otherwise, that's my update.

I have one friend who always writes me when I don't blog...this person actually misses me and wonders if I'm ok when I'm not posting. Not many friends take time to check in, and while I know everyone is busy, I really appreciate knowing there's one person who REALLY misses my entries! So, to fulfill a promise, I'm back to blogging, at least for today. Some days I just forget, or I'm too tired, or I've had one too many glasses of wine. But for today, I'm here...

Today was a good day. I went to my women's group in Jeff City, and then took care of my antique booth and visiting some used bookstores--I was good and didn't buy anything... Yesterday, I spent the entire day in Columbia, getting my hair cut, seeing the dentist, seeing my counselor. All good. I've had a couple of 'down' weeks, but I'm feeling better today. Mostly it's just been so slow at here, I'm worried about business...but hopefully with school starting soon, things will begin to pick up...

I've managed to get back into my writing to some extent, trying to finish a play I've been working on, and have really been enjoying the amazingly cool weather here, and the cleansing rain. It's wonderful...  I guess that's about all my news at the moment. Thanks for stopping by...

Well, I haven't been gone TOO long this time... I've had guests every night this week, but only one couple each, so while it's not great, at least it IS business. Right now I'm waiting for 2 ladies to finish using the hot tub so I can use it for a bit--the weather is just lovely outside. It's actually cool, and we've had lots of rain. I suspect more is on the way with the remnants of Dolly. I don't mind the rain as it keeps things cool, but I hate the humidity when it gets hot again. That's the worst part of damp weather...

I was pretty draggy today, and still have a room to do for tomorrow. Hope I can pep up a bit. I did get some work done, but I missed my women's group, which is a bummer because I really like going. But my guests didn't leave till late, so I just couldn't make it, plus the bad weather deterred me too. And next week my sister will be here, so don't know if I'll get to go then either... Maybe, she might like it...

I went to Beks and did some work there today, with coffee, which I really enjoyed, so I think I'll try to get out and do that more often. I seem to be able to be more focused AWAY from the house. But it's hard to get away with so much work to do HERE.

Went to a good program at the library tonight on Fulton from 1820-1911, very interesting. And my Nathan was mentioned, which was kind of neat since he gets so forgotten... I really need to get back to my work. SOON.

Anyway, enough for today. Hey, ladies, time to get out of the tub!!!

Oh, my gosh, I swear it thundered and lightning(ed) from midnight until mid-morning. No way of sleeping. The AC went off, the smoke alarm went off, the cats went nuts--it was a crazy night, and I couldn't sleep anyway. Tonight I'm taking drugs and hopefully will sleep through anything! I had guests in the house too--they're here tonight, but we all agreed to move breakfast till 9, so I can sleep in for a bit. Man, what a night!

Today, however, I did manage to get some work done, editing-wise, and then had a dinner package tonight, so it's been a busy day, all in all. Hope to spend a bit of time in the hot tub before packing it in--EARLY!

Tomorrow I have guests checking in, and lunch with a friend, and maybe a jewelry party at another friends, if I can make it. I have to get a book transmittal finished, and I REALLY want to fit my workout in there somewhere...

I just found this amazing streaming music radio station that I love. Nothing like music to keep the soul happy. My soul has felt pretty happy today, in spite of the fact that I felt exhausted most of the day. Lots of anxiety too, but I'm working on it, one day at a time...

Nothing really special about it, but I got a good night's sleep, and then went to work out, and then got some work done this afternoon. Guests are here tonight, which is good, and I can't say why, but I feel things are starting to look up. Now if the weather were just a bit cooler!! It's very humid and very hot--not a pleasant combination. Still, I did get out and do some watering, and we've had lots of rain, so hopefully everything won't die due to my neglect. Anyway, I'll keep this short, but it was nice to actually feel like my old self for a change. Or my new self who maybe I'm starting to like.

Went out with a friend, over to a little town on the river called Rocheport, where we had dinner at a cute little restaurant called Abigail's, then went to a winery overlooking the river for a drink before heading home. There was a nice breeze, and even though it's warm here, it was a lovely evening. Good conversation and just a really nice evening. She and I have lots in common--love of all things Arthurian, good wine, books, movies--really enjoyed our visit!

The rest of the day was so-so. Went to workout at the Y, then called a couple of friends. Found out today that a guy I know here died of a heart attack this week--only 54 years old, a great historian whose work wasn't even half finished. Life doesn't seem fair sometimes, and is just way too short. I need to get back to my own writing... Time to stop wasting time. Time to start moving forward again, even if the steps are painful. Movement makes the muscles stronger.

Anyway, that pretty much sums up my day. I'm hoping to take a bike ride in the morning, if I can get moving before it gets too hot! I want to see if I have any better stamina after all this working out. I could even tell today that I was doing better with the weights, so I suppose I AM making progress... Ta-Ta for now...